it’s been a while….

I can’t believe it’s been over six months since I posted in my blog!  I suck.  So bad.  I’m sorry to any readers out there who were wondering what the heck happened to me.

Not a whole lot has happened in the past six months, really.  I did my internship at the accounting firm downtown (which was amazing), found out I wouldn’t be working full-time at my full-time job (which sucked), and became single again for the first time in a long time (which also sucked).

The internship was by far one of the greatest things I have done.  Ever.  It helped me to realize that even though I kind of pretty much hate learning about accounting in class, I really do like doing the work.  I’m hoping it will make me a better student who might want to actually, oh, I don’t know, study.  I know, right?  Studying?  While in college?  What an unheard of concept!  It’s just that school always came natural to me and I never had to work hard to get decent grades, so when I don’t understand a certain subject (such as the one I decided to major in) it’s really hard for me to hunker down and actually study.  I need to, though.  This is what I want to do, if not for the rest of my life, at least until I figure out what I do want to do when the rest of my life happens.

The worst part of my internship was finding out towards the end that my full-time job wouldn’t be able to give me full-time hours due to the suckiness of the economy.  That and they decided to give all the hours to the students who all went away for school and aren’t studying pharmacy and will therefore never work in a pharmacy again when they graduate.  Instead of giving them to me, who has been with the company for over seven years and at that particular pharmacy for two and does plan to work there some after I graduate.  And who doesn’t live with mommy and daddy (OK, well, I kinda do, but really, she lives with me so it doesn’t count.  Right?).  And has had to make her own way in this world since she was 19 years old.  So, now I’m torn between trying to find another job and trying to find a cosignor for a HUGE student loan so I can afford to live until I graduate next year.  Both daunting and seemingly impossible tasks these days.

And the single thing?  It happened.  It sucked.  I’m over it (not really, but I definitely don’t want to talk about it anymore).  I’m trying to move on.  Sometimes life just doesn’t turn out the way you planned.

I’m in summer classes right now.  Intermediate Accounting I and Intro to Forensic Science.  The science one is actually very interesting and I’m really enjoying it.  The accounting not so much.  I take it because I have to.  It will totally be worth it some day.

Speaking of class…..I’m off to listen to the accounting one online some more.  Saving grace is that at least I don’t have to sit in the class room.  I can totally sit at home and watch it online!  Yay!

just another day

This is going to be short and sweet.  Well, maybe not sweet, but definitely short.

I worked 16 hours again today.  Just got home and am ready to crash.  My day was very stressful and odd.  First thing this morning when I walked into work I found out that our network was down.  You could log onto a computer to do things like check email and surf the net but couldn’t get into any programs that are essential to run a hospital pharmacy.  Like the program where we enter patients’ medications so they can be removed from the med stations on the units, for instance.  Not working.  It was a stressful hour until they got that problem resolved.

Right after that was fixed there was a bad code in the ER.  Two of our pharmacists went up to assist and apparently there was a doctor attending who did not handle the pressure well.  There was much yelling and screaming trying to save this poor man’s life.  Eventually they got him stable enough to transfer to the heart center (in a different hospital), but that was another stressful time.

Then I tried to donate blood and was told that I couldn’t (for the first time ever) because my iron was too low.  My iron was 37% and it needed to be 38%.  I was kinda ticked that I got my finger pricked, which is worse than being stuck with that huge needle in my opinion, and then couldn’t even donate.

After that the day started to slow down a bit and I actually thought we were going to have a decent evening.  I was wrong.  Actually I was only part wrong.  We got a very sick 20 year old kid in our ICU that required a lot of meds and another rapid response (like a code only not as bad) on one of the units.

All in all, it was a very stressful and eventful day.

And on that note, I’m going to bed so I can do it all again tomorrow.

not baby fever

Well, both because I need to kill time and because I’m working until late again tonight, I’m writing today’s post from work.

It has been an insanely slow night at work this evening (that was redundant, wasn’t it?), which at the beginning wasn’t such a bad thing.  It meant I was able to watch my Colts play the Steelers from a comfortable (ish) chair in the break room instead of listening to it with headphones on my phone.  But then the game ended.  Colts won and I’m crazy excited and happy about that, but I have had nearly nothing to do for the rest of the night.  I went upstairs shortly after the game ended and did our evening ritual of exchanging medication drawers for our patients.  Then about an hour later I went back upstairs to drop off a round of new medications and IVs.  Since then I’ve been sitting at the computer surfing the net.  There are surprisingly few things to be seen on the internet when you don’t feel like shopping (because you have no money, but that’s another story entirely).

On my second run upstairs, however, I had to pop into the nursery to drop something off.  When I was up there the nurses were soothing a crying baby and my heart just about melted.  I think I’m starting to realize that I may have baby – not fever, but maybe baby-slightly-elevated-temperature. 

There are many reasons why it’s not the right time for me to be thinking things like that.  A big one is that it has already taken me 10 years to do this college thing and I’m on track to graduate 12 years after high school graduation.  Another thing is I don’t have the money to have a child right now, and kids?  They’re expensive!  I’m always hearing people I work with talking about child care and school and clothes and diapers.  Too much for me right now.  There are tons more reasons for me not to even be thinking those thoughts right now and I don’t want to bore anyone with the rest of them, so I think I’ll stop.

But I am at about the right age to be having those thoughts.  Over 25 and every day I’m creeping closer to 30.  I  need to stop thinking about it.  It will only depress me.

But the good news is that now it is 10:44 pm, only sixteen more minutes of me having to be at work.  Yay!

just another day

While I wait for my (annoyingly slow) credit card page to load on another window, I thought I would write a little post about all the fun things I have planned to do today.

First, I need to go back to the bike store to get a bike rack for the Scion.  Even though my car has more space inside than it would appear to from the outside, it is still a tight fit to get the new bike in the car.  This makes getting places with the bike a tad difficult.  Plus, I’m always worried that something will happen to the car, the bike, or both.  After the bike shop, I am hopefully going to be getting the bike out of storage.  I know!  I’m so bad!  I just bought the bike and it has been in storage ever since!  In my defense, though (if there is one), I was out of state for a week after the bike was purchased and since there was a chance of bad weather, I didn’t want to leave the bike outside.  So, into the storage unit it went.  And, as previously mentioned, it is a pain in the arse to get the bike into the car, so until I had money (which I still don’t, hence the slowly loading credit card page) to get a bike rack for the car, it had to stay there.  I feel bad for my poor bike.  It deserves to be ridden.

After that, I need to call the dentist, the eye doctor and two other doctors to set up appointments.  It’s that time of year.  the time when the only thing in my schedule is work and not school.  This apparently makes it easier to schedule these types of appointments, although I’m not sure how.  I’m sure I won’t get these appointments finished until August.  Just in time for school to start again.

At some point, I need to either call or go to the advisor’s office on campus so I can talk to them about the possibility of me retaking my finance class from last semester (J, I know I told you that you talked me out of it, but it hurts me to look at that grade!).  I’m not sure they’ll actually allow me to do it since I did technically pass the class, but if they will, I’m all over it.

Then, at 3, it’s off to work for another fun-filled evening at the hospital!

I can’t wait.